Thirteen Reasons Why- The words left unspoken


The poem:

Today I am wearing lacy black underwear

For the sole purpose of knowing I am wearing them.

And underneath that?

I am absolutely naked.

And I’ve got skin. Miles and miles of skin;

I’ve got skin to cover all my thoughts

like saran wrap that you can see through

to what leftovers are inside from the night before.

And despite what you might think, my skin is not rough; nor is it bullet proof.

My skin is soft, and smooth, and easily scarred.

But that doesn’t matter, right?

You don’t care about how soft my skin is.

You just want to hear about what my fingers do in the dark.


But what if all they do is crack open windows?

So I can see lightening through the clouds.

What if all they crave is a jungle gym to climb for a taste of fresher air?

What if all they reach for is a notebook or a hand to hold?

But that’s not the story you want.

You are licking your lips and baring your teeth.


Just once I would like to be the direction someone else is going.

I don’t need to be the water in the well.

I don’t need to be the well.

But I’d like to not be the ground anymore.

I’d like to not be the thing people dig their hands in anymore.


Some girls know all the lyrics to each other’s songs.

They find harmonies in their laughter.

Their linked elbows echo in tune.

What if I can’t hum on key?

What if my melodies are the ones nobody hears?


Some people can recognize a tree,

A front yard, and know they’ve made it home.

How many circles can I walk in before I give up looking?

How long before I’m lost for good.

It must be possible to swim in the ocean of the one you love without drowning.

It must be possible to swim without becoming water yourself.

But I keep swallowing what I thought was air.

I keep finding stones tied to my feet.”

-Hannah Baker, 13 Reason’s Why


Thirteen reasons why

The poem Katherine Langford reads out loud as Hannah is actually penned by Sarah Kay

[Don’t worry I am not here to reveal spoilers]

The very catchy dialogue of the series by Hannah was, “Some of you cared, none of you cared enough.”
O.k. sorry.
Here we go,

Thirteen Reasons Why. Even if you haven’t watched it, I’m willing to bet you’ve heard these words floating around the virtual world, or maybe heard it from someone you know? For those who don’t know, it’s a web series, originally released on Netflix. It’s based on a book by Jay Asher in which a teenage girl named Hannah commits suicide after recording her voice in tapes stating 13 reasons (people) why she decided to end her life. This show deals with everything people keep quiet about. Bullying, rape, suicide and mental health, it shows the dark side of being a teenager through a gripping story and graphic screenplay . Though the book was released in 2007, which is when Selena Gomez bought its rights, it’s finally on screen ten years later, and it is amazing.

There is lot to tell about it. But the reason I chose to write about it because no matter how old you are, you must have experienced or seen some type of abuse be it bullying, body shamming, degrading mental health and what not which should be in spotlight more than ever. I do not want to scaremonger but I do wanna flag up what’s out there.

You can’t stop the future.
You can’t rewind the past.
The only way to learn the secret . . . is to press play.

There seems heaviness in all what I just said but it’s an alarming state in our country where peers and families are to blame for the current situation. There is a term used in the series called butterfly effect (Yes that’s Wikipedia) – which in simpler terms mean, small causes can have larger effects. Small things we do in our lives, things that might impact someone’s life and we will never know.

We go through family issues, pressure, stress, uncertainty, heartbreak, and death and what not. But it’s the sensitivity of mind and heart that how we will react to it. Not everyone is born with a lion’s heart. Not everyone is as calm as a turtle.

You might think it is coward to do such an impulsive act but do you think being silent would be the answer. Everything is not always about rainbows and sunshine. Everything is not always about our comforts. Sometimes it is uncomfortable, real and honest. They need to speak out and be heard. That’s all it takes to save and mold their lives. I personally don’t think suicide is glamorous or peaceful. I am glad the writers and producers of this show didn’t portray suicide as anything but that what it is.

At last I wanna say it is responsibility of peers, teachers and even parents to indulge in conversation, & I mean real conversation to understand their Generation-Y kids and vice versa. Because no one wants to listen to their own tapes recorded by the near-ones. I mean all of this devastates not only your own but many other lives. There is help available out there! There are counselors, psychologists and even special friends who are more than willing to help them cope with it. Click here
I hope now you understand why this show is so hyped. I know it is a sensitive issue and hard-to-digest topic but not talking about it might leave us with the minutest possibility of understanding the very reason for living.
Thank you for tuning in. (If you need, I am always there to talk to)

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